Colorful Fear {Personal}

Confession : I have never completed a 5K.

In fact, I’ve always been terrified of them. I know those 3.1 miles should not incite fear but for some reason it has always been an unattainable goal.

Now, I know this stems somewhere from the fear of failure. As in, if I commit to a 5k and then back out – fail. If I start a 5k and stop in the middle of it – fail. But the fear of failure is not a reason to live in regret.

A bit of back story, a little under 3 years ago I signed up for a 5k with a few friends. At the time, J and I had only been dating for a couple of months, but he had planned a surprise trip to see my dad who lived a couple states away and I had to change my 5k plans for an exciting trip. I know I made a good choice (Hey, I ended up marrying that sneaky trip planner), but I bailed out on a goal that I wanted to achieve.

Fast forward 3 years and about 20 additional pounds I saw that The Color Run was coming to St. Louis in a non heat warning month (aka May-September) and pleaded to J to let me sign the both of us up. He agreed rather hesitantly as he knew he would be pelted with various colors while being forced to walk 3.1 miles.

About a week before the 5k, I realized that I had barely prepared for the event. In my mind, if I feel prepared then I will not be as anxious and feel confident that I can do whatever I set my mind on. So I scoured any blog and website that had tips for how make The Color Run epic (if you wrote one of those blogs – my many thanks). I also mentioned to J that not only was it a run of color, but also GLITTER! You would think I told him that all Lowe’s stores were closing – he was that upset. See…
2015 . color run us
We woke up at an ungodly hour and made our way down town. I fought off some anxiety tears and waited to finally be let on the course. J was a trooper all the way through, even when I had to stop to stretch (I have a few minor low back issues) he was patient.

Fear did not stop us. And I finished my first 5k!
Yup that is us looking very colorful and fearless…

2015 . color run S 2015 . color run J

What fears are keeping you from accomplishing your goals?